Control
Sometimes I feel like I am in control and other times not so much.
The times I feel out of control are often the times I feel the need to control things the most.
Conversely, the times I feel most in control are often the times I am most free from a need to control anything.
Thus, if you try letting go of the need for control, you may find yourself more free of control (whether it is the need to control something or something that is controlling you).
Giving up Control
The best decision I ever made was to give up control over my life to God, but like Jacob, I am constantly trying to wrestle it back. The wonderful thing is that God gives me grace to wrestle with this issue of control, and little by little by little I begin to grasp what he meant when he said:
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28)
I don’t think Christ was talking about physical labor or work, but rather the labor of our spirit’s attempt to be in control of our lives apart from God.
Letting Go of Control is not Abandoning all Control
Of course I am not saying to abandon all control and thus remain children, “tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes,” but rather let go of our need to control our lives and “speaking the truth in love…grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ.”
We can only do this if we learn to let go. And it’s okay to wrestle a bit, just keep in mind with whom you are wrestling.